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While there were times when he wished he could roll back the clock and erase all the sadness, he had a hunch that if he did so, the joy would be diminished as well. And that was something he couldn't contemplate. (From At First Sight by Nicholas Sparks)

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Why?

I wasn't going to post anything today because I'm feeling a little down. I visited him in New Jersey yesterday and he was miserable because of what's going on with her (much too long, complicated and personal to get into here). I hate seeing him hurt but he walked into this with his eyes wide open to the situation so, in that respect, I don't feel bad for him. I do, however, feel very sad when he talks about her. Why didn't he ever feel that strongly about me? Why hasn't ANYONE ever felt that strongly for me, for that matter? Is it wrong to want someone to feel that strongly about me? Maybe he did at one time but that was so long ago... Anyway, it just makes me sad.

As I was on my way to the grocery store today to pick up the things I need to make my mom a nice Mother's Day dinner, I heard the following song. It's one that I haven't heard in a while but it is sticking with me today. It's by Collin Raye and it's called I Can Still Feel You.


It's that feeling that someone
Is standing behind me
And I turn around and there's no one there
And it's the sensation
That someone just whispered
Yeah and I still hear your voice but you're not really here
Your memory is like a ghost
And my heart is it's host

I can still feel you just as close as skin
Every now and then
All by myself, in a crowded room, or my empty bed
There's a place you've touched
With your love no one gets close to
I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you

You said you'd love me forever
Then you said it's over
And left me without the missing link
I thought I'd forget you
But I guess I forgot to
And lately I've been too confused to think
When I reach for someone new
It's like I'm touching you

I can still feel you just as close as skin
Every now and then
All by myself, in a crowded room, or my empty bed
There's a place you've touched
With your love no one gets close to
I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you

In everything that moves
In everything I do
I can still feel you just as close as skin
Every now and then
All by myself, in a crowded room, or my empty bed
There's a place you've touched
With your love no one gets close to
I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you
Oh I can still feel you

1 Comments:

  • At 5/08/2005 8:27 PM, Blogger Jen said…

    It is not wrong to want someone to feel that way about you. Someone will, for sure, you just haven't met him yet. Keep your spirits up, I am rooting for you!

     

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