Home of an Emotional Idiot

While there were times when he wished he could roll back the clock and erase all the sadness, he had a hunch that if he did so, the joy would be diminished as well. And that was something he couldn't contemplate. (From At First Sight by Nicholas Sparks)

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Counting Down...

Well, I'm officially counting down to the trip AIM and I are taking to Atlantic City. Since I haven't posted much lately, I'm not sure if I've mentioned this trip but we're going specifically for the Gwen Stefani concert but we're leaving Wednesday (of this week) and coming home on Friday. The concert is Thursday.

I am SOOOO excited. I don't what I'm more excited about though, going to the concert or just spending three days with AIM!

I'll try to post about our little trip next weekend. In the meantime, an update on my AJ... she's been seizure free since that one dreadful night. She's still a little off in terms of walking and hearing but only at times so I guess it's all good.

There's not much else to report on but I have to get back on track and either get back to the gym or start a diet. I only have 11 months until Mary and Bill get married! So, in actuality, I have about five or six months until I have to get fitted for a dress. If that's not incentive, I don't know what is! Wish me luck!

Friday, October 21, 2005

A Huge Scare

This is my baby, AJ

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When I was a senior in high school, my dad brought an akita puppy home. Although she would become most attached to me, he brought her home for my mom. I was preparing to head off for college and since I'm their only child, he wanted to alleviate some of my mother's anxiety.

The only thing I minded about this, was that I'd be missing out on so much with this little ball of fur that we named AJ. Yea, I know, AJ doesn't sound very feminine. My dad wanted to name her John, after the male half of the couple he bought her from. I suggested the compromise of Annabel John, or AJ, since it was the first names of both members of the couple. So AJ she became.

For those of you who are not pet owners, I can only say that while I understand she is not human, she is SO much more than justa dog. She is a member of my family.

Which is why it was so heartbreaking on Sunday night when I woke up at 1:30 to the sounds of my baby having a seizure. In the 11 and a half years she's been with us, she has never had a seizure. It scared me to no end. Luckily, once it subsided, she was able to get up and walk on her own, though she was shaky.

We immediately rushed her to the animal hospital where they gave her valium and took a blood sample for tests. She had to stay there overnight. In the morning my mother picked her up and took her to her normal vet. The prognosis from the normal vet was slightly more promising than that of the emergency vet and she got to come home.

Knock on wood, my baby has been doing fine since she's been home. There have been no more seizures and she's walking a little better too.

Right now, we're just keeping our fingers crossed for no more seizures and for a few more good months or years together. I don't know if the comparison is appropriate, but I would imagine that this is how those of with kids feel.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Finally Answering The Tag

It seems that nearly a month ago, Mary tagged me for this. Since I've been out of the loop I only saw it recently. So, finally, here I am to answer and tag some of you. If I tag you but you've already been tagged and done this, then nevermind. Unless, of course, it's been so long that you don't remember doing it!!!!

Ten years ago: I was a sophmore in college. I was rooming with my friend Melanie and had become very close to Cindi... both of whom I am still close with.

Five years ago: I was in a new relationship... one that would last five and a half years. I had just stopped working a full time and part time job. The full time job was data entry at a pharmaceutical returns warehouse and the part time was as an intern for a local publishing company. When the publishing company offered me full time, I took it, as I thought it was what I wanted to do with my life.

One year ago: I was still with my ex, though sadly, I have to admit, neither of was happy. I don't think I can thank him enough for being strong enough to be the one to say the words... not that it matters, we haven't spoken in months. I had also just celebrated my one year anniversary at my newest job (the one I'm at currently).

Five snacks: Ice cream, chocolate, cookies (chocolate chip or peanut butter), magic bars, anything Reeses (even though this could be classified as chocolate).

Five songs I know all the words to: "She's in Love with the Boy" by Trisha Yearwood, "Loneseome Dove" by Garth Brooks, "Live Like You Were Dying" by Tim McGraw, "Brass Bed" by Josh Gracin and "Elvira" by the Oak Ridge Boys. (I know there's nothing but country listed here but it's all I could think of at the moment!)

Five things I would do with $100 million: Buy a house for myself with a wrap around porch and a lot of property, renovate my parents house as they wanted, buy my car, get electrolysis so that I never have to shave again, spoil the people I love.

Five things I would never wear: A thong bikini; well, let's be honest...any bikini (I'm right there with you on this one Mary!); stilettos (not because I wouldn't like to but because I'd kill myself in them); a mini-skirt (unless, of course, I were to lose some serious poundage; real fur.

Five favorite TV shows: Law & Order: SVU; Everwood; CSI; Seventh Heaven; West Wing.

Five biggest joys: My dog, AJ; spending time with my friends; being kissed; getting paid; relaxing. (Lame, I know.)

Five favorite toys: Computer; cell phone; okay... that's it.

Five people to pass this on to: Robin, Glitter, Srini, Jen, Lonna.

A Quick Hello

So for the first time in a long time, I have had a lazy day to myself and it's been great!

Things are going well. AIM and I had another little thing this week (he wouldn't return my calls). Last night we finally spoke and I went by for a little while with the sole purpose of finding out what the heck had happened to make him avoid me. I had to drag it out of him, but he finally told me he just felt like he needed a few days to himself. Once again though, I stepped up and told him that he had had me worried and that if he finds himself feeling that way again, he should tell me. I also told him that I'm not interested in pushing him into something he's not ready for but that if we are going to continue seeing one another, he's got to be honest with me.

He said he understood so I guess now we'll just see what happens.

Anyway, I'm going to keep this short and go check in with everyone else now!

Monday, October 10, 2005

Checking In

Before I give you all an update on me, I have to give kudos to those of you who have husbands, kids, work numerous jobs (and/or work and go to school) while keeping up with your blogs. I tried about a week or two ago to get caught up with everyone but it didn't work. I got halfway through before I had to stop and then couldn't find time. So I'm back in that same boat again.

Well, enough of that. Let's move on to the situation with AIM. I had been telling a few of my friends (jokingly) that I didn't know quite where AIM and I stood. Even though things have been really good, I wasn't sure if he had classified us as hanging out, seeing each other, dating or whatnot. We were at a party this weekend with a bunch of his friends and he introduced me to everyone as his girlfriend.

About two weeks ago, he and one of his friends came out to happy hour with me and some of my friends. (Keep in mind that he lives approximately 45 minutes from me and he came out by me for happy hour.) We all had a good time and his friend, B, told me this weekend that he liked me from the get go and that he told AIM that I was one to hold onto.

Coming from B, especially after some of the things I've heard him say about women, marriage, children, etc., I think that was a huge statement. I'm happy to know that his friends (or at least one of them) feels this way.

Anyway, I impressed myself the other day. I had gotten a little annoyed with AIM because he'd invited me out to his house Thursday night when I was finished with bowling. I called him as I was walking out the door and I could tell he was out. Sure enough, he was and he was backing out of our plans. I understood that he wanted to see his friends (many of whom were visiting from upstate) but it hurt my feelings that he was backing out of plans with me. I didn't tell him right then and there but I did tell him the next day and he seemed genuinely sorry. So things are good. In the past, I never would have said what was wrong. I would have just been snotty and kept it bottled up inside.

Oh! After I told you about the Halloween party and asked for costume ideas, I found out it was going to be a movie theme. Everyone was to dress as a movie character. But update... the party is cancelled. As much as I was stressing out about finding a costume, I'm disappointed that the party's not going off now.

Well, gotta run for now. Hopefully it won't be another three weeks before I post again!